Looks like someone edited this before I could get a chance to do it, so I don't have to do it. I'm going to assume the same person is gonna edit the second part later. Anyways many thanks to translator fag and anon for this! The NTR doesn't really start until the second part but this part is more of a story/character builder. I have to admit the artwork isn't to my liking however the story is pretty interesting. My only problem with it is in part 2. I'm sure many will have an opinion on this, a lot of people have been wanting to see this so check it out. For news... ummm I'll be posting the oneshot later tonight I got an assignment to work on first. Oh, also there is something I wanna ask about sayuki, I know I said I was gonna bulk the first 12 chapters to make it an unofficial vol 1, however since it ended at chap 18 then vol 1 should be like 9 chapters. Do you guys want me to bulk the first 9 chapters or 12? I'll just do whatever I hear in the comments or however many people say first 9 or 12 over here. UPDATE - I've posted part 2.
Enjoy!
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In my opinion, it would probably be best to just bundle it as 9 chapters each heh.
thanks!
About Sayuki, bundle it at 9 chapters.
-ryu77
bulk it at chapter would be my choice.
chapter 9*
Bundle it at 9. I really wanna read the rest and I hope the dude dies or at least gets his.
when can we expect the second and last part
It'll be up very soon.
this is nice story. so, what part ntr from that story? there is no ntr in this story
Great story, sad and happy at the same time. I like the ones that jerk around with your emotions like that. Moar liek thees!
How exactly is this cheating when the girl gets raped of all things? Unless she reciprocates in the later chapters.
Hmmm, well if I'm correct even after she got raped, she continued to see him and fuck him, when she had the option of telling her boyfriend or going to the police or someone about that. Instead she kept doing it. I do understand that it was blackmail, but still. As for ntr, well I'm not too sure, but I figured I just tag that anyways.
Did someone undrstand whats going on in the last 2 pics? Is it just his imagination, or did she return (or maybe she is just a visitor)?
can we have links to the raws?
she continued to fuck him because she wanted to protect her boyfriends drawings/paintings. she wanted to remain pure to him so he could continue to draw her. @ ehud she does go to see his exhibition later on with her daughter(?) and they are both single it seems.
Thanx Anonymous. So she returned to Japan? I guess there there is no Musa 3 to solve the issue?
No there will be no three thats the point.
Their relationship was destroyed by the rape and blackmail that followed. Beyond the point of repair.
And her self loathing made it all the worse and she was actually having sex with the bastard as a self punishment. And she fantasizes that his fingers are those of the man she loves.
When they were officially broke up she went to have sex with the guy in an attempt to drown out her pain and inflict more pain on herself for what had happened.
Point is she actually truly loved the guy she was forced into cheating on.
Im not just making this up if you really think about her inner monologues.
Odds are the kid is the bastards.
This is the perfect NTR in my Opinion. Has Rage, some justice, and a very likely bitter sweet end.
Still, it's been 3 years since then, and things can change, especially when love is involved, and she is back in Japan now.
I mean 5 years of course. Anyway, it seems that she is at peace now, and most likely she intends to meet him. No doubt thats the reason she returned to Japan.
Totally agree with everything said, except with ANON's suggestions that their relationship was destroyed beyond repair.
She wanted it repaired. It was repaired. He was willing to take her back, but it would have cost the paintings and she would not allow that. I think she does this as a bit of selfishness on her part.
She thinks she is ugly, or at least, ugly on the inside. And she definitely doesn't think she is the goddess that Harane thinks she is. But when he paints her as that beautiful woman, that goddess, she feel beautiful and she wants to try to be that goddess for him. It think this is why she cries every time she sees a new painting of her. Because she continues to grow more beautiful and it revives her purpose. If you notice, no new paintings happen between the rape and the night with Harane.
Before she left she asked him to continue to draw, despite everything that happened. He could have ignored the request but he didn't. He continued to draw because the paintings represented something since they were kids. It represented the love he had for her and as their love grew the paintings grew more beautiful and angelic. What she doesn't know, and maybe himself, the paintings are the physical manifestation of Harane's love for Madoka. That is why she is true goddess like in that last painting. Because she is his goddess. And hopefully her resolve will be renew again. I like to think those tears she shed to be a good indication.
I surely hope so.
I am still not so sure about this story. I mean, it was a good read but honestly, I think the girl is stupid.
I don't understand why she didn't yell for help when the guy was about to rape her? And if she did truly love the other guy, why would she do something that would bring him that much pain? Is it (like the above comments have pointed out) just because of the paintings?
Also, about the end. It does feel bittersweet. I am just wondering who's kid it is, the bad guys or the good guys(if anybody can answer this question, that would be awesome)? Either way, I would have preferred for the good guy to have moved on and maybe found some other girl who has more sense then the girl who got/let herself be raped. I think it would have been more fulfilling if he did that. Instead, he can't get a boner at the end. I get that he loves her but it still disappoints me.
I don't understand why, after her "boyfriend' breaks up with her (in the second chapter), why she goes back and fucks the guy that basically caused everything to go to shit. Couldn't she have fucked someone else at least?
@Anon: Like other people said, she was completely broken at that point and just wanted wanted to "punish" herself more and lose herself in sex. Like she said during the act, she didn't care what would happen to her anymore. And the prick that caused it all was first come, first served.
Plus, it was a plot device for the epilogue to add more bitter sweetness to it since the sight of Madoka fucking the douchebag made him permanently impotent.
Although i loved reading what Nuhart wrote and dearly hope for such a reconciliation, ilike to think so since the ending was more positive than negative.
@ Other Anon: i doubt Madoka would have the douchebag's baby, it's most likely Harane's although it's one of those issues where it will never get answered. She got filled pretty bad by douchebag.
And yes, she did all of that because of the paintings, quoting Nuhart "What she doesn't know, and maybe himself, the paintings are the physical manifestation of Harane's love for Madoka."
Most of the questions you are asking are in the story. You just have to look for them.She writes in her final note to Harane that she did what she did because she was a coward (and selfish). To be honest I think they are both cowardly, but I will go into that later. She is selfish because she needs those pictures to feel beautiful and the thought of them being destroyed was too much for her. She was a coward because she could have called out to Harane, or told him or the police what happened to her after the rape, but she would have looked impure to Harane and she was afraid he would stop painting her. Or, he would have seen her tied up on her back, looking very un-goddess-like, and that scared her for the same reasons. That’s why she thought during the incident, “Save me but don’t look at me”.I also think the reason why she resisted Harane for so long (even before the rape) was that she thought that the celibate nature of their relationship, or as long as she was “pure”, made his paintings of her beautiful. After the rape she already felt that she was unworthy of him, but because she needs those pictures for herself she stayed together with him so that he would paint her as the pure goddess she thought he was painting her as. But, like I said in the last comment, I don’t think he drew her as a goddess because she was pure, but because he loved her so much. That’s why when she went back to talk to him, after the deal with Akirakawa was fulfilled; the picture she found was so beautiful. He was angry, betrayed, but he still loved her, maybe more then ever before.After the first time, Akirakawa had blackmail material so she continued their “relationship” under certain conditions, but was secretly punishing herself (like anon suggested). For a while she tried to do things she didn’t like, like facing him when they were together so he would bore of her quicker and “end it”, but he caught on and noticed she liked when he was facing away and had his fingers in her mouth.This is also why she had the conflict with herself when she first planed to leave in part 2. Punishing herself wasn’t working so she thought of going far, far away, but she was afraid that if she left he would stop painting which she did not want. So instead she went with a “if you can’t beat them, join them” mentality. This only worked for her -allowed her to enjoy it- because she could fantasize about Harane during it. What she didn’t anticipate was that she was going to get used to it so much that when she finally got with Harane she wouldn’t be satisfied. That’s why she got so upset and frantic when he ended so fast (and was that good, most likely). It was obvious that he was going to be lousy for his first time but she probably didn’t think they would get together with him, most likely due to her infidelity and his very passive approach to her.What I find to be most humorous was that Akirakawa believed she was getting off on him. She was getting off on the idea of Harane, never at him. Most of the time she looked away or focused on his hands, always stuck in her fantasy of being with Harane. That’s why she kept calling him naïve. He thought he knew all women, but he didn’t; didn’t even scratch the surface. Probably why her last comment when they were together was “there will be plenty of guys who are good at fucking...but they won’t be Harane…”She felt she lost him forever when he saw them and that sullied her fantasy, her only way to get release and not care anymore. He saw her impure, which is what she wanted to prevent since the beginning when she didn’t cry out for him (initially). She had left Harane so that he wouldn’t destroy the paintings (and maybe make more?) but because he saw them she thought he would do it again. So when she left she requested him to continue. She needed them and she was afraid he was going to stop making them.
Oh and why did she sleep with him when she broke it off with Harane? She didn’t care anymore and Akirakawa was there waiting for her. Plus I don’t think she is the type of person to find some random person and just fuck him. Akirakawa had a quality she needed, his hands. And of course, it creates great tension and a reason for her to leave the country (based off her assumptions).And then there is the biggest question of all. The daughter. Is she the bastards or Harane's? On a personal note I hope it is Harane’s too, but, like anon said, probably not. However, there are some things that point to Harane. Akirakawa has probably been having sex for a while and seems like a guy that doesn’t care about wearing a condom. He obvious doesn’t wear one with the girl that he was with before Madoka, and he did say he was going to wear it when they (Madoka and him) were together. I saw two times when he had used one or was using it so you can assume that he wore it most of the time. The only times your can be sure that he wasn’t using was during the first time and during their last time. Since the other girl didn’t get pregnant it is possible to assume that he is sterile or has a low sperm count. It is a stretch I know but a pretty educated guess. It is just too bad that the artist didn’t draw the condoms on that accurately for the other times, if they used them.I also propose this. The daughters face is masked intentionally. The artist did this on purpose so that it would always be a mystery but we do know one thing. She looks like her mother, from the back at least, so we can assume that she look like her mother entirely. What this means is that it doesn’t matter whose it is. Because she looks like her mother Harane would love her just as much.As for Harane being a coward. He could have stopped this long ago if he just asked her what was up, or maybe told her he loved her. Because he didn’t she thought she had to take it upon herself. He is just at fault as she is. I am not saying she is absolved of her crimes. No matter how you look at it she cheated on him and betrayed him. But nothing is completely one-sided.Just want to say these are great questions everyone. I have been looking for people who want to discuss this story for a while. Now everything I say is based on my interpretation and my opinions. Everyone has a different outlook on literature. The difference here is that you have an image to go with the words. You have to look at the images to get the full story. When I first started analyzing this story I thought that the girl wanted Akirakawa to have sex with her and she was just putting up a face. I got that first impression when she threw the water in his face and was blushing, or the sidelong glances and glares. A little tsundare I thought, very coy. Then I thought maybe she want to have sex with someone that wasn’t Harane, but reminded her of Harane (the hands) because she has these pent of feelings but didn’t want them to affect the paintings. When she is groped from behind she instantly thinks it is Harane because of the watch and hands. It may not have been established until the next chapter but I am sure this could lead to another reason why she was willing at first. But still, after that first night, in the morning, you can tell she loathes him. This is for sure. Both are great thoughts but I liked the idea that she is selfish and needs the paintings for her to feel beautiful and that she really truly loves Harane, as he does her.
Wow, a lot of cool analysis. First time I think.
The art is not my favorite but the story makes it worthy.
I can see why people dislike the art but it works for this particular story. It makes it seem more real I think.
I don't think that Harane was *completely* apathetic toward the whole situation. At least when the situation started escalating and the rumors began to get pretty common and he finally confronted her with the whole thing.
He didn't even suspected at that point, it was pretty much common knowledge that the prick and her were shacking up and he didn't stopped processioning her about it until she just asked him to stop, the concept that Harane knew she was fucking another guy which was "unfitting" as the Goddess that she was in his eyes was too much for her and she just ran away from him.
He gave it a try but in the end it was kinda half assed. Madoka hit it the jackpot when she said they were both cowards, they could barely face each other in that situation and most of the time let it run its course.
That analysis was very thorough and well written and overall very much enjoyable to read Nuhart, this story actually left me a bit depressed when i read yesterday since i can relate it far too much than i should.
I also enjoyed how the guy that pretty much destroyed their innocent and celibate little world was completely out of his league and missed the whole situation with her, thinking that her orgasm was his win by default. This story is too realistic to be affected by the common plot device.
Thumbs up, Nuhart. I wish that a happy short sequel would be made.
Also, i actually genuinely enjoy this art, the sex was pretty damn hot and the character designs are pretty soft and stylistic at the same time.
Yeah, but she didn't know he saw them together. So she may think he is still not in the know. But that would also explain why she ran away from him in the parking lot (and her look of absolute horror)
Thank you Nuhart and Metro, all my questions have been pretty much answered (I was one of the Anon above). Now I guess I shall provide some insight on the story.
The ending does seem to imply that Harane and Madoka may yet get together, which would give a happy ending, but there is still some tragedy to unfold. I don't mean from Akirakawa (the other girl he was fucking seems to have killed him, or something), but I mean physically. Since he only did it (I think) two times and then went impotent, he probably won't be able to satisfy her physically. Some people may say that they just need to catch up with sex, but the thing is since she has a kid, she won't have as much time to do it. So we are faced with the prospect that Harane still won't be able to satisfy her unless he is a quick learner. So this story leaves me with the conclusion that Harane may have won mentally and emotionally with Madoka but he lost physically to Akirakawa. This is why I would have preferred for Harane to have moved on at least, then if Madoka came back, he would have been more able to satisfy Madoka physically and get a complete win over Akirakawa. Sadly that didn't happen and probably won't happen until the kid is old enough to be left alone.
I understand what you mean but impotence is a weird thing, especially in a story. Maybe his body is just waiting for Harane to come back. Maybe she can help bring him "back to life" hehe. He said he can't get it up, but does that mean he has only tried to masturbate or maybe he tried to move on and realized that he couldn't perform as a boyfriend could. I mean, 5 years have past and she had a kid. I doubt she became this mega slut that bangs anyone and anything, and she obviously is single since she doesn't have another man with her. I like to think that since the story ends as positively as it does it could mean that it will only get better.
Also, Akirakawa may have "won" sexually but what I did forget to mention (and this does change my previous analysis a bit) is the time lapse from when she tries to get Harane going again. We know that some time had past and they have done it enough to make them both pass out in exhaustion. I think Madoka would be more than willing to wait for him to catch up but then he had to go and destroy that painting. Oh what she will do for those paintings...
What makes this story so nice is how it has stimulated people to draw their own conclusions of the matter. Some think she will go back to her whorish ways; others think the impotence will hurt a possible relationship; and some think the child is his and will be the catalyst that brings both of them together so they can live happily (emotionally and sexually) ever after. So many possible outcomes and no real answer in sight. The ambiguous ending and inner monologues of the characters is what have established this story as something more than porn. If it didn't would we be having this conversation?
Side note. I suggest reading a manga called “Bitter Virgin” if you want to look at a non-porn story similar to this. Really choked me up.
I am the anon from above again.
I think another hentai (I think) that has to do with childhood friends with a lot of drama is called When You Let Go Of My Hand.
If you like hentai that will make your heart jump, then this is one to read. I haven't read it, BTW. I, personally, don't like hentai with too much drama. The only reason I read this was because of the NTR, but I did enjoy it.
Best hentai manga ever.
Not the best fap material, but definitely the best story.
the real bastard here is me the reader.
i don't think it's enough ~ she should be punished more.
the kid should be aborted 60 months in, the guy should be painting hideous lumps of twisted shit, and he should find happiness through revenge, take a box cutter to her face and be done with it.
simply put, i refuse to accept that she did it for him or acknowledge any of the "feelings" she professes to have for him.
~ so yes, i am a terrible person, i see only black and white, and i recognize that i am chasing an ideal ending that prolly doesn't exist. ~shame.
so all that's left is the rage.
I think this ends on a happy note. Think about it, Madoka left thinking that her image of purity had been ruined and just wanted Harane to continue art, any kind of art at all. Yet she comes back and sees that not only has Harane continued his art, but he kept her purity intact in his paintings despite seeing the absolute worst side of her.
It's worth noting that Harane was actually performing well during sex with Madoka (just look at her face during round 2). Actually, Harane's sexual performance may be irrelevant since we've seen that Madoka can only enjoy sex with that walking vibrator with hands (aka the douche) if she's imagining him to be Harane. This indicates that her emotional attachment far outweighs her sexual attachment. The only reason Madoka left him at that point was because Harane was disgusted that his paintings had indirectly caused her to go through such painful things, which is why he said he wouldn't draw anymore then. So the only thing you can really blame Madoka is for having an odd attachment to those paintings (though it's more like a plot device than anything).
Also, about the art exhibition: Did she know about the Musa painting beforehand? If yes, then that points to a reconciliation, if no, then it doesn't really point either way. It also looked like Harane was saying goodbye to his students as Madoka was looking at the painting so it would be hard for the two of them to miss each other.
Want to say I like ZeroOBK's use of the phrase "walking dildo". Totally agree. And anon, if I was in the same situation I would probably want that to happen to her too but for the sake of what the auther did with this story it works and I like it. If only life was so romantic (sort of...minus the rape and cheating)
Did she enjoy the sex with the rapist? Yes, she did.
Did she have a choice whether to stop these acts or not and tell her boyfriend? Yes, she did.
Was it her fault? Not at first, but as time passed on, she became guilty just as much as the rapist.
Did her boyfriend deserve this? No, no one deserves this and I'm glad they parted ways because it would result in more heartbreak.
In other words, the only 2 people I feel sorry for are the boyfriend and her daughter.
But hey...it's a Hentai manga, and we wouldn't have enjoyed it if she didn't enjoy it. It would have been a totally different story if it was a normal manga.
She is a b1tch and the painter is an idiot. point.
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